uplate update
yeh i know, long time no post. this blog has gone down the gurgler.
got my car. he is shiny, his name is Max, and he is a metropolitan grey Mazda 2. can’t wait to get my licence so i can actually drive him.
work is going good. i start as a cadet manager in december. should be good, i think.
exams going ok. only done english so far but that was pretty alright. i’m sure all the others will go great too.
dance going ok too. just got jazz and contemp at the moment. might have to drop it altogether next year. its a bit sad; i don’t want to. i might have to try and work around it.
Excitement.
I think i’m buying a car soon. Either a new little Suzuki Swift S or a Toyota Yaris YRX. I’m rather excited. I want gun metal grey colour. I can’t wait.
Lots has happened since last blog; i really should post more often but meh. I don’t do tap or ballet anymore. I’ll try and pick the ballet back up next year but for the moment, it’s too much. So now it’s just contemporary and jazz once a week each.
Work is all good. Got lotsa shifts and raking it in, thankfully. I’m glad now that I’m cross trained; I get to do a bit of everything.
I think I’m going to apply for Business; Marketing/Event Management at VU. Not sure yet but I dunno what else I would do. I’m deferring it til 2009 anyways so meh. We’ll wait and see. I think I’ll dream big and put a few other courses on there and change my preferences around if necessary upon getting my ENTER score.
School, on that note, is pretty good. Yr 12 has been easy so far; I think I’ve just gotten myself into pretty good habits over the years and its all pretty automatic. I guess I’m not really doing any overtly challenging subjects but yeh. I’m having fun.
Mmm… in other news, Damien turned 18, Stewart got promoted… meh what else.
Going to Adelaide next week, should be fun. But yeh. That’s about it.
Oh and the Christina Aguilera Concert that I was going to… got cancelled. I got all the way to Echuca and had to turn back. It sucked ;(
sore eyes.
Had year 12 retreat last week. have very sore eyes. I’m exhausted. It was a very special and memorable week, but I am so exhausted. I danced in front of my entire year level for the first time. It was… well, it was liberating. I have watched so many people enjoy themselves expressing their talents on stage at school for years and this time, it was my turn. The feeing was just unbelievable. And the feedback was that it was great. There was some negativity, but that was expected, and it was from people who are probably so drug-wrecked that they can’t think straight.
I’ve been working a fair bit too, which is good. I have my first open on Saturday. I am excited. It will be good.
Katie and Cain’s 18th was this weekend just gone; it was a good night. I danced away and had great fun; was a shame that a few couldn’t make it.
I have a driving lesson tomorrow. I’m nervous as all hell; first time driving a manual on an actual road. I think I’ll be ok. I had a bit of practice on the farm but meh, we’ll see.
Cass had her 18th too a few weeks ago. We went to Echuca for it and it was pretty cool; she had a nasty hangover but that was the funniest bit for me. Thats what you get for going out and getting off your face :-p. Some of the family are so annoying though; I hate Louise, I just want to punch her in the head. Meh, what can you do?
Peace out,
Brendan
ps. i was just kidding lou; thats what u get for being a smart arse.
W00T!
Jazz Duo: FIRST!
Jazz Solo: SECOND!
Jazz Group: SECOND!
I’m so happy, especially considering the solo was self-choreographed and the duo was mine and Amy’s choreography.
I’m so happy.
I’m so happy.
:)
I now honourably mention myself.
Hiiiii.
Just got home from Mildura Eisteddfod. Did only my contemporary solo but I got an honourable mention. There was a hiccup with my CDs, not even my backup CD worked, but thankfully the original was just next door. I am really proud of it. I am not a contemporary dancer and I was up some very classically trained competition.
Adelaide competition was ordinary. We came out ok. Got a HM for jazz group and nothing for duo. Will try to change that for Mildura.
Far out its cold. This place is freezing. Thank the Lord for electric blankets.
I want to start my own online business. I just don’t know what doing though. Lol.
So tired. Staff meeting at 7am this morning and then worked for Kimberli cos she sick. Meh.
Catch,
Brendan
It’s been a long time coming…
Hey.
Long long time no blog.
And of course, now I am back with the sole purpose of having a bitch 
Work sucked tonight. I am sick of working my ass off, getting nothing back, and watching others do little/nothing and get away with it. But hey, shit happens. I just grit my teeth and keep working. Hopefully one day it will pay off.
I am trying to push myself in a more positive direction with everything; more action, less whingeing. My new personal motto is “go the extra mile” and I’m trying to do so all the time. I know that will put me ahead of those who don’t. I’m also trying to be positive about everything. I’m trying to change my thinking so it’s not bad and it becomes automatically good. Mind you, it wasn’t that bad in the first place, but I’m trying to make it better.
However, I am over school. Had enough, but I’m just sticking it out for the social side and to get my VCE. I’m just a little sick of the hypocrites. Oh well.
And funnily enough, since my last post, my dancing life has become a bit lost. I have quit tap for the time being. I just couldn’t get into it. I don’t know what I’m gonna do anymore; I don’t know if dance is still it, I’ll have to wait and see. I have decided to stay here for another year next year so I can work, save, and pay off my car. I want an electric blue Toyota Yaris YRX, and at this rate, I’m going to get it. After 6 months of work, I have almost $5000 in the bank, and I’m happy. I am looking at business and marketing as my alternate careers, or perhaps even retail management. We’ll wait and see; why make a decision now when I don’t have to yet.
Yay. Big Brother is on again. I am now officially entertained, haha. Got the Adelaide dance competition this weekend; should be good. Amy and I have worked hard on a duo and it’s looking awesome. I just hope we can pull it off. And hopefully we’ll kick a bit off butt with our group dances too.
And so that’s the UpLate Update.
Catcha later, hopefully soon,
Brendan
Changes
I am very sore today. At dance I felt lazy all over, thats how sore/tired I was. I don’t feel so bad now, but meh.
Work tomorrow night. Relay for Life on the weekend. Looking forward to it, it’s for a great cause, something that means something to me.
Trying to choose what to do next year, and it’s getting closer by the day. I’ve been thinking I’d like to be someone’s PA: if you get with the right person you can travel all over the world. But I don’t want to turn 40 and realise how badly I wanted to dance and that it is too late. So, I’m going to go with dance for the moment.
But I have to make some changes first. How? That’s the question.
I’m tired of being what you want me to be
I’m feeling so faithless, lost under the surface.
Don’t know what you’re expecting of me.
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes.
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there.
I’ve become so tired, so much more aware.
I’m becoming this, all I want to do is be more like me and be less like you.
I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can’t remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made.
Update
Meh, I’m kinda over school at the moment but enjoying the time with classmates. Dance has been going well: making progress methinks, and its all for the better. Work good too.
Those goals I set, some of them are on track, working on the others.
Have had a big week at home. Nothing bad just stressful.
I’ve been focussing on saying “hey” to people i normally don’t at school. This year’s my last chance and I think I need to let go a little.